I’ve more or less made peace with the fact that, the occasional odd, beautiful mix on his Soundcloud aside, I’m not getting any more Cool Calm Pete. 2004’s Lost, the Korean-American rapper’s one and done album, represents, in its modest way, a defining article in what I want from Hip Hop, both in aesthetic and content.
The album might be my favourite chronicle of the “War on Terror” era, imbued with sense of living one’s life crushed between competing millenarian horrors, and the feeling that certain ideas of community and wholeness had splintered without anyone really noticing. Imagine how he feels now.
Lost came out the same year as Kanye’s The College Dropout, and musically, it feels like a slightly shabbier younger brother – same deep, soulful palette (check the lilting strings of “2am“, the one track to crack a million plays Pete’s Spotify), but while Kanye always plumped for prestige artists like Aretha Franklin and Marvin Gaye as sample sources, Pete’s beats have a thrift store aesthetic, making a virtue of their decay. Take the easy listening trash of Paul Marriot’s “Yesterday Once More” and then note the regal horns on Lost’s title track and wonder how many others would have bothered listening to the former for the near two minutes it would take to find them.
His insistently lazy flow confirms that skills and speed are not necessarily synonymous. His lyrics sketch the frustrations and joys of the interregnum between childhood and thinking of yourself as an adult that is a lot of people’s experience of their 20s. A key line, from “Cloudy”: “Fucking around and it sucks to be you, but I guess living a lie is a luxury too?”.
Another, from “Offline”: “Remember Y2K? A little bit of you hoped the world would end. Then it came and went, and moved on. And nothing happened.”
Then there was a collection of non-album singles, remixes and rarities called Loosies and that’s it. The talk, on the various forums where you still find people wondering where he went — as Walking Dead actor and professional level handsome man Steven Yuen says, if you know, you know — is that he had no desire to be famous, and now works as a graphic designer. A side gripe: in return for all the relentless horror of late capitalism, I expect at the very least to be able to locate hard copies of the two Cool Calm Pete records at a sane price. It’s failed even at providing that.
Best as I can figure, 2011’s single “Heart” is the last Cool Calm Pete song. To say he samples Nina Simone’s “Peace of Mind” isn’t quite right: for the majority Pete plays the record near unchanged, preserving and extending the hip swinging rhythm and turning it first into dialogue and then a duet.
CCP: “that perfect someone, she broke your concentration, love God and figments of your imagination”
Nina “ … when the fathers”
CCP: “Yo Papa was a rolling stone”
Nina: “And the mothers … “
CCP: “I heard her crying on the telephone. And they … “
Both: “…fight all the time”
The outro doesn’t let up for over two minutes, more than half the song’s length. Focusing in mantra-like on the phrase “no time for the heart”, there’s humming, snatches of drumming, echoing voices. It swerves suddenly, briefly back into Simone’s groove, then takes a breath and dissolve back into the drone, instruments and voices fading in and out until Simone’s cooing echoes away and there is a round of applause. That fades too, leaving a single organ note, and then the song and probably the catalogue it’s part of, is done.
It’s a retirement note of sorts – “for old times’ sake, put your hands up” — and building lines like “It’s so much money and stress, I’m getting depressed, to consider, that this might be the end …” from dialogue between Simone and Pete, perhaps I ought to be glad that’s all it was.
There are plenty of artists who’ve given me one or two irreplaceable albums before making a far more permanent and wasteful end to their time in public life than simply getting a new job. And the feeling of being personally addressed that comes with artists that arrive at the perfect time for you works both ways: just as often as I wish he’d do a second record, I find myself hoping he’s doing ok.